Im fcking perfect :/

I understand now.

true friends are people who thrust you and and u realized that they are true friends because they know u truly. Some just choose not to thrust you. so maybe if you are looking, oh well if since i'm a bitch, two faced, back stabber, perasaan, noob, sucker, idiot, fucking girl to you or anything else can u even garuantee u never do these kind of things? you're not fucking perfect. Fine then take me that way, i live for myself not for you

Its the climb

awkward awkward awkward awkward awkward and awkward

but I ..

got to be strong

Just keep pushing on, cause

there's always gonna be another mountain

i'm always gonna wanna make it move

there's always gonna be an uphill battle

sometimes i'm gonna have to lose

ain't about how fast i get there

ain't about what's waiting on the other side

motivation oh motivation,

stop this bullshit and bring me down.

because i dislike Lazzy.

***

what the hell? not again.

i don't need someone to called me an ego or bitch-person

because i'm not.

i understand the feeling of being hurt by someone u love

and i took a longer time to understand this

duan tong bu ru chang tong

it means short pain better than long pain?

well i don't really know how to explain this

but i seriously understand this now.

so i din't mean it okay?

because .. duan tong bu ru chang tong

so don't come and simply say that i'm an ego, lanci, action or what so ever bitch.

YOU DON'T KNOW ME so know me first before u judge me

i seriously seriuosly understand how it feels like

u know. being hurt by someone?

but this is life,

duan tong bu ru chang tong.

P/S : i realize i've been posting alot lately.. yeah i'm really "free", i don't have anything to do u know except kerja khusus, projects, PMR studies. okay okay, i'm gonna stop this___byeee

fucked up

... haaih

chinese hw + PMR + LOA kids + school + my height + jealousy +

made me feel like suiciding.

now what?

love? Fuck

i really miss the feelings of being comfort by someone,

anyone.

If .. IF this was the last hour to world's end.

i would definitely talk to you.

i'll be quiet because there's too much to say

i'll say

i saw your face in the crowded place cause i don't know what to do because i'll never be with you

yes. it is a song

have u ever felt sad whenever u listen to any song?

well, i do.

have u ever feel so special to someone and suddenly they just left u hanging out there. Then u acted like you don't give a damn but actually you do.

Have you?

this thing in my head is seriuosly affecting my year

my pmr year

P.M.R.

seriously STOP TELLING ME ABOUT FUCKING PMR.

I KNOW .