never grow up

dunno why it's two a.m. but i really felt like i wanna post this. This song is amazing , really.. it means alot to me. Not everyone can feel it but.. i'm sorry lar sook! you more small gas lar zzz. After listening this song, i was like__ looking back to my childhood time. i really regret that i actually grow up. Being a baby, nothing to be worried or sad, just have anything you want and you can hug your mom and your dad or simply playing your teddy bear jumping up and down. it's just not the same now, they changed to something you cant see anything good left in them, no love no nothing. just your parents nothing else. I really think " why am i so unlucky to born in this family, it's like no freedom , nothing at all." i really wished to be older all the time, i'm wrong . For the first time i regret hating them, i remembered my times being kid, waiting for them to come back, footsteps, tucking me into bed and just nothing to worried bout and all the memories just flow back right into my mind. i realize how old i am, 14 and complaining about stupid fucking freedom and forgot that parents is getting older too and how much i waste my time while they are still here. and sooner i'm going to loose everything i had now, at least whats left for me now. i really don't want to grow up. i wished i never grown up..

taylor rock!

lifeless days

/omg suppppeerr boringgg now, but can't express my hyperness because no one beside me. zzz! still stuck at a 5 star jail , lifeless + boredness makes me want to suicide. but i'm too young to die!! lol, this is just a joke , it's so not funny but.. i wanna laugh!! HAHAHA .

/miss bliss and ponteng with you guys " sook, kai xin" sorry nat nat saw.

/why am i posting in points. i guess i'm too bored to do this kind of lame things. T.T

/ omg! owl city-vanilla twilight + michael jackson, akon-hold my hand is awesome!

/ OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG *frozen style HAHAHAH

/ so many awesome songs that i don't know which to choose. haiz. heartbreak cuz.. i deleted all taylor swift's songs from my mixpod. :(

/ so awesome that i wanna type the lyrics out. hehe

Vanilla twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night tu/rn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here

/ history of this song is.

the owl city guy is doing a song for her girl friend,

but before he done doing that song.

on a night when they went to some where

a car accident happened,

and sadly his girl friend died.

then he thought of this song he was doing.

then finally he named this song Vanilla because his gf name is Walla.

its a true story, from fans commenting at youtube. :)

wake me up when september ends

boring!!looking forward to THE OUTING. lmao.

organized by_______ the ANT hahaha

happy birthday fatty sister

Its 3 o clock++ , and today is my sister's birthday.

i folded a box of stars with a book of magazine.

then my fingers feel pain. LOL

being me is act before you think , not think before you act.

this makes you true , bad yet good , one-face.

think before you act makes you a bitch + acting cute + 2 or more face + fake , like what people said:

faking don't last long. :)

having good mood makes me smile more today.

hope tonight's party will be awesome.

wish my sister a very very sweet and happy 6 years old!

reminds me of myself when i was little. hah! xP

fat right?? :)

all about you nut nuts sot! :)

after waiting for "1 year" in this freaking hot day in hometown-ipoh, it finally rained. yeah, i', currently eating a dark chocalate which is so small that i just took 3 seconds to swallow it, what a waste!


hey you!! yeah you!
big eyes! i wanna tell you something :
Are you THE girl with a FREAKING BIG ASS + FREAKING BIG EYES + FREAKING BIG BRAIN + FREAKING BIG ENGLISH is or shall i say "are" my friend, is your name NATASHA ALIA BIG SAW and you prefers nat nat saw which is a tut name for you. unlike mine ah kang. simply better or even cuter then your :P

Nope i'm not joking.i should not put :P this though because it is so TRUE.well if you guys curious of her looks,well i guess i post some of her UNIQUE EYES OR perhaps BIG eyes photos. TAKE THIS KRITIK NAT!

1. omg! i think i'm going to die not because of world war 3 .
omg! stop acting cute. i know you're pretty but please don't act cute okay??
*its a praise* muahaha!

2. THIS IS SERIOUSLY EWW. YOU'RE NOT HOT AT ALL. EWW! WHY YOU PUT YOUR HAND UP? IS IT IF YOU LOVE SOMEBODY PUTYOUR HANDS UP? HAHA. ADAM LAMBERT. xD muahahah!


3. is it that you never go shopping before of you never seen models before.or..you re trying to BE a model? omg. vomit blood + water + what i ate ytd.muahaha!

4. you can see clearly here your own freaking big eyes. xD muahaha!

how about your fans?? nut nut? paramore or LADY GAGA? haha :P
okay okay, i edited because just realize how insulting this is thanks to sook3 .hard feeling nuts? because accept the fact haha. like what you told me. hahahahaahhah ! babe~ hahaaha

"love",

michelle kang

*screw the title*

If there's a magician came to my house and gave me 3 wishes.
i would wish for these

1. i wish that i have a better father

2. i wish that my grand ma was not my grand ma, she is my mom( i love my mom alot more than i love you! yea you!jk XD )

3. i hope i was older. older enough to take me grandma and myself away form this freaking hell. well, worse then hell.

maybe meeting you or being born in this "hell" is my destiny.
haiz. :(