The Reality

Many things happened to me recently. Seems like time is really passing so fast.

Back then i remembered i'm just some kid having their most enjoyable moment in primary school and then graduate, then a little girl who have no dreams, no motivation, no nothing. Just some normal immature kid that wanted to grow up and have their own house, boyfriend and stuffs. Yea some bitch that thought they're very pretty. After some storms and thunders, turns to someone with dreams, with motivation. Someone with passion, attitude and life. I'm no more lifeless, i'm no more a kid, i'm someone, someone that trying to live her life to the fullest

Yet.

things are still happening. Seems like God is still testing me, sort off still putting me in His test.

Now that i'm mature, now that i can think, things are still happening. it will never stop. but i'm still moving on. i'll just cry and get over it, like some other adult because time never stops and wait for you.

"race with the time" said the jurulatih in the camp i went.

I guess i really miss my childhood so much and suddenly realized how minor the problem is back then when i was still some kid. I regret so much that i didn't enjoy my moment when i was a kid. I shouldn't had acted like an adult when i'm not. Now it's too late.

I just hate it right now.

i just wanted to go back to my childhood and watch hannah montana, and dance like it's nobody business. It's just so fun, and full of energy when i was young. and most importantly is that i'm completely problem-less. The wrong doings i do won't cause many problems.

but now?

doing something wrongly, just a bit. You just get the scoldings. and no one will ever listen to you anymore. Things you said is just too mature for a real adult to listen to you and accept what you said cause all they think is "you're just another kid"

No matter how hard i tried, how hard i prayed, how hard i perfect myself, how hard i think and reflects what i did and try to stay perfect, how hard i satisfied you. it's just seems uselesss. Is it that i'm such a worse human? so i'm just not perfect enough?

All that matters is that you're right and i'm wrong. All that matter is that everything i do must be right to you. but still no matter what i'm still trying that hard.

I don't give a damn anymore, i don't want to care anymore. I just follow everything you said cause i have set myself an aim, a target. and One day. One day i will prove to you that, i'm successful. That me too, is not a kid.

It's just so much different here in the real world. This is not some movie, this is reality and reality sucks

so sometimes i choose not to believe in it

Once, it made me felt like not everything is possible and stuffs but now i know that that's not true. Anything can happen as long as you choose not to believe in reality.

Except for love. lol. love is way more complicated, yes means yes, no means no. so when peoples say "come on, get back to reality, she don't love you" mean she really don't love you. When it comes to love, yesh you have to get back to reality

This is quite a long post. the longest i ever post? haha, if you have read this far. means you either is a stalker, a best friend or just someone that thinks my post is meaningful. hmm.. ;)

few hours before 11/11/11

It's finally over

yesh world end is going to come

goodbye form 2 life

oops. i actually wrote form 2?!

woah, times pass

shooo..

Anyone wants to partaaay?

dancing till the world end?

so when is it exactly world end day/doomsday?

is it..



or is it..



Ooor ..



Nope. No one knows.

only God knows

but all I know is.
Life Goes On!
Com'on people! enjoy it while you still can
For me, its just ridiculous.
I'm too young to die anyway
i still have unarchieved dreams waiting to be "come true"
dreams do come true after all
isn't it? Stop worrying and live you life to the fullest! :)

time passes fast,

just like . light.

reminds me of Life Brief Candle

To my dearest form-4 gonna be friends

Prepare yourself for everything that's gonna happen

soon.

sixteen years old is not that easy to be

Don't simply waste it

because it happen just once in a lifetime ;)

Happy sweet sixteen (gonna be) guys!

We've grow up!

at least i had, hopefully i'm gonna find a job

and gonna be taller next year

160 cm come to moma! :B

Toughest camp

What else can i say more about this state camp

yup, though the majority is malays

but i totally had alot alot of effing fun

this is like the best camp i ever went

better yet, the true / real camp i ever went

the toughest camp i ever went

leeches, periods, dirtyness, bugs and stuffs doesn't even matter anymore

because all you care about is to sleep and to feel warm

cause it's really freaking cold, your body is always wet

This is what i call "camping"

This Is Some Moments i will always cherish.

Totally worth it!

Advice

i know this blog suppose to be something about me but i just can't stand these bunch of girls man. i mean, these girls.. these immature girls. -.- gah, how to begin? these girls just constantly/frequently posting some emo things about love, how much they need guys, issue they and their boyfriend having and some true quotes.

It's totally not wrong. but it just annoys me! these status / quotes just making yourself desperate for love. And these girls.. they usually are those girls that you know? edit their own pictures? once again i had to say, it's none of my business and it's also not wrong. but it totally disgust me, i mean i don't blame you for being ugly. Infact.. you're not even ugly, no one's ugly. God created us all based on his looks. If i'm pretty, you're pretty :))

Besides, it's not the looks that define who you are but your heart. so why can't you just be yourself instead of editing your picture? no offense but you girls seriously made me had goosebumps when i see your real face in life. it's like totally different.

Maybe.. maybe some of you girls just want to attract attention. the problem is This Is Not The Way You Get Attention. I tell you what, i give you my guitar and teach you some songs. You take that guitar go on stage and perform. This Is The Way You Get Attention.

or, maybe.. maybe you're really frigging sad? It's okay to post once or twice, maybe you broke up with your boy friend? but posting it for like more than 5 times a day? That means you either are really lifeless or you really are toooooo desperate for love -.- (sorry)

Ugh, i know i know i'm mean. but it's true right? i don't know if any of you (who are in this category of girls) are looking at this but i hope some of you are. It's never too late for you to change? and i don't mean to hurt, it just some fact that no one dares to say. and Don't get me wrong, i don't hate you, i just dislike you.

just abit.

really.

and pls stop it.

stop finding those quotes, it just make you feel more desperate and desperate.

sincerely by someone whose matured (literally?)

peace :) ---->> :/

expect the unexpected

once again, things that i'm so looking forward to do will not come true. "expect the unexpected", a word i learned from joti camp. Yea, The only thing that i look forward and passionate about will not come true. form 4,5 year is definitely a thing you can't miss especially when you're a scouts that have potential to become a council and you're a patrol leader in a remeja's patrol. no i'm not joking but now its already the fact that i'm going to miss every bit of this and now i got to start a brand new life in some other place. Please don't ask me why and when because me myself still haven't yet accept this fact, it's just soon, really soon ..

i hate this but what else i can do

yea thats life. i just got to stop thinking about stupid and unrealistic stuffs and start thinking realistically, not everything is possible.

bastard

My brother is such a bastard

Never ever met some guy as bastard as him.

Like seriously.

Freaking lifeless selfish two-faced bastard

He thinks he's right in everything, he's pro in everything

well waay not.

causeheisjustsomepatheticselfishbastardtuttingsuckdisgustingoldclassicbastardthatsingsterribly.

argh i can't stand his attitude anymooooooorrreeeeeeeeee.

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Oh gosh!

good life

I'm Heather Janssen and I think that being influenced and inspired by others is a beautiful thing. I'm seventeen now, and I've learned more about myself from others, than I ever could by myself. I think that faith is a wonderful thing, confidence comes from knowing everything willl be okay, and I like beaches and warm air. Could do without the snow here in Canada. Life's an endless adventure if you make it one, and I find peace in documenting every exciting and hurtful moment! Why be alive if you can't do things you're passionate about?

Relationships can be stupid. Best friends can surprise you. And on the most important day, everything possible can go wrong. But life still goes on, and you just have to move on with it. Thats how you find out who you are.

:) okay, i'm Michelle Kang here. lol, the girl above is a singer (obviuosly). After seeing what she said, the way she sing, songs she wrote, i can say that i almost fell in love with her (if i'm a guy). Being inspired by others is a beautiful thing and inspiring others is also a beautiful thing and she totally inspires me. feels like writing a song about what she said, though there's an exam coming tommorow so i guess i'll do it later. oh well life goes on.