What goes around, comes back around. says Justin Timberlake.
He's right, some feelings are meant to stay forever.
sigh, and it really sucks, it still hurts. Sometimes i felt like i can't hold this any longer, i can't keep it to myself no more. But, i don't want to let people know, i don't want to make them think i'm weak because i'm not. So i rather post it in blog and assume that no one will check it. It is somehow a relieve after spitting it all out in a post, this is the only way so that's the reason why my blog is so freaking emotional. This is like the weak side of me, and it is definitely disgusting. To me at least.
How i wish i could have someone to listen to me sometimes. I have someone but maybe I just don't want them to think I'm weak but this makes me alone i suppose. Like seriously, i never cried infront of a friend before, except that one senior.
Somehow i felt like she knows that i'm not okay, she don't even need to ask me am i okay. Only by eye contact, i know she understands me and i can't help but cry. For the first time in my life, i cried infront of someone, whom is not that close to me. but that definitely felt great. but disgusting as well.
p/s, I'm not a lesbian by the way. I PURELY LIKE GUYS. :) purely. and i have ex-es hahaha. (just to prove u know.. yeah.. so...)
Anyway..
Seriously, i'm not emo-ing. Just "what goes around, comes back around". This feeling will never go away. never, it comes ocassionally when things happen especially and sums it all up to tear me apart. Then after that, i'll be okay again and that feeling comes back again and then i'll be okay again. and this whole shit continue to circle around my life. SIGH. okay i'm cool now. :)) least, for now.
I'm not fragile like that. hell yeah. :)))))))
