2012

WOOOHOOOOOOOO ! not.

i'm right now in house, playing tetris without any battery, and listening to heart broken songs.

this is the first time ever, i had countdown like this.

oohh. and i kept on looking at a spoiled clock (either earlier fifteen minutes or later)

alright, i guess this shall be a random post.

# FOREVER ALONE huh?

i'm so gonna miss 2011, things that happened, friend i met, camps i went, attitudes i changed.

it's quite a tough year With pmr

and of course With some other heart breaking things that happened

sigh.

it's been two years

Hopefully starting from the next few hours it would be not that tough life for me

er yea, i think so , or perhaps hope so.

Peoples come and go, time will never stop and we must never stop

haaaaihss

bye 2011, so gonna miss you

sigh.

According to the spoiled clock above me,

the time right now is 12.00 am

here i come 1st of january 2012

finally unemployed

oh hell yeah, right now is morning.

and i actually have the time to post this!

and also clean the house, cook for myself!

because.. I'm finally unemployed!

but just wanted to use this post to introduce some of the important peoples that inspires me during this working holiday

okay ,

there's 3 bosses

1) James - the one that was in the office most of the time

a short chinese smoker

and someone who seems like he's never been serious but turns out he's so fierce cursing here cursing there

2) Alex - a tall indian,

friendly but don't see him much

3) Mr. Wong - biggest boss but super humble.

a shy chinese

and of course, he's a scout!

boss-to-be (manager)

1) Jo lyn - the one who fetch us to work everyday

determined, tough and kind

an ex troop leader of pandu puteri of seafield before the year of kok wai?!

legendary.

2) Cham - chinese smoker

china pet with weird english

don't talk much, botak hair

Designer

1) Izzat - a malay guy that sits infront of me

funny and lame (say jokes all the time)

totally weird guy but inspires me

he tried really hard to prove that he can do it

2) Zarith - a malay girl that have a weird laughter

chubby and cute

inspires me too

her potential is not that strong but she totally put all her hardwork in making it done

3) Kak Farah - young and pretty and have a boy friend

never throws temper

good sense in fashion

took care of us all

4) Varun - a seriuos funy bollywood star . NOT

dance randomly and claims himself "Elvis presley"

probably the joker in the company

but knows when to be seriuos.

finally..

how can i forget this one.

KAK NINA - a racist bossy two faced bitch

lowest rank , never get to join in the meeting

a woman not girl (have experience?)

fetch those bangladesh peoples to work, buy food for us

finally apologize infront of everyone at the last day

lastly.

i wanna touch up with some of my feelings.

this company may looked like it's ugly from the outside but,

it's not ;)

abimagebuilder, you're weirdly awesome

jealousy kills

Mad happens when injustice happens

Jealousy happens when comparision happens

sometimes when we feel jealous

we need to stop and think.. about what we have

and not what we don't have.

But not all people can do this, even myself.

so that's when this two little big word "jealousy kills" was invented.

ex: omg, i have a pimple.

haihs, look at her she have no pimples.

wait.. look at the others, they have so many pimples.

Sometimes we need to twist things around and search for the things we have right now.

and not the things we don't

There MUST be something you have and the others don't have..

think positively so that.

you! yes you.

can remember what you have right now and what the others don't have about you ;)

easy to write a blog, easy to say it but its not thaat easy for me to do it.

p/s: jealousy does kills, but one day . one day i shall have my own studio u sucker ;P

13.12.11

Happy Birthday Taylor Allison Swift!

Keep inspiring!

sincerely from a fan among billions millions of em,

Michelle Kang a.k.a MK

season of breakups?

Many couples are splitting up these days.

i wonder why?

and it's girls asking for it! not guys?

weird.

i thought that everyone of em are immature, not loyal and just want sex and the woman's body?

hmm.. i guess some girls act like this too.

Now i realized that there's good guys out there too, being loyal and not just thinking of giving everything out for their girlfriend or ex.

it's not how much you love her, it's how long you love her.

it's not about how much you want to sacrifice for her, it's about how long you can care for her.

No matter you're guy or girl but everytime whenever you wanted to couple or date with someone, always ask yourself whether will you love him/her forever. not just how much you want him/her then only say yes.

Don't go " sorry babe, i need to tell you something, Can we break? i don't wanna lie to you anymore that i love you, cause i don't"

some guy thought this "act" is really what you called it? wei da? cause you don't wanna lie to him/her but it's not.

you should think properly whether will you love her forever first instead of not asking yourself that and just ask for couple cause you love her too much and want her too much and then got bored and dump her.

but these few couples that had break up definitely made me know that not every guy like that, some's not. while some girls are like that.

tsk tsk. shame on you immature player. disgrace of girls. *nods head

to those couples experiencing this "season of breaking up" , i've got one quote for you.

"Lust is easy. Love is hard. Life is most important" ;)

parental issues

oh gosh this few days, i only discover something.
my bro is thaaaat immature.
i always thought that he's the mature wan but turns out im wrong.
I'm felt like i'm so dissapointing though.
the person i thought is the most mature person ever turns out he's so not ;(
i some more set him as a role model of me growing up to be like him, matured.

during a period of time i thought that i'm the problem in my family.
a friend once told me that time that every family has someone that causing problem
then i used to thought it was me, so i started changing myself
changing the point of view, and see myself through others position.
this is how i changed to a better person, i even pray every day

" lord, help me to be a better person"

since then, i got better.
ever when it's not my fault, i will try to think and find small little things that i did wrong.
but usually, majority-ly it's not me.
and i realized that the problem it's not me anymore.
you see, it's my dad.

yea i've got a big family, and my dad is the one causing problem
im not saying this as a kid or what.
but i've been thinking alot, my dad is a really ego, selfish, immature man.
he never listens to others in the family
but we can't do anything, we can't change him at all.
you see he seriously never listens to anyone.
im starting to think my bro getting more similar to

him nowadays.

but my mom, she's a little bit guai lan, but she's okay.
i used to hate her in my teenager period but now.
i see her differently and realized she's so awesome
once, my dad say im bossy and im the biggest in family
then she helped me by saying " no.. someone else is bigger"

from that moment on wards, i felt like i love my mom so muchie.

she's so awesome and she always help me when my dad don't

but this is not the point.

as i got matured, i realize there's others out there having even difficult moment dealing with parenting issues.

i realize that i'm quite a lucky kid

but no matter how much i hate my dad sometimes

i stop by and tell myself " he's still your dad"

and i will act like a matured adult and stop hating him.

as the quotes goes,

and then,

a kelly clarkson's song will automatically sings in my mind.

i spread my wings, and i learn how to fly

i'll never forget all the ones that i love,

make a wish, take a change and breakaway.

fuh, i had grow from here to there.

speaking of this, i really need to special thanks to someone

without him, i wouldn't be what i am right now. ;))

cheers

"if parents never get hated by their own children means they don't care about them"

quoted by tk.